Finally Started Pursueing My Dreams Today!

I signed up to be Team Beachbody Coach. I am so thrilled about this and cannot wait to get my goodies in the mail. My dream is to go into the health and fitness industry and do something amazing. By becoming a Team Beachbody Coach I am getting my foot in the door towards my dreams. I have been so thrilled and excited about this all day. I set up a new tap on my blog, Instagram, Pinterest, and Facebook. I am so proud of this and I pray that God will bless me chasing after this dream.

I just love sharing that is what I have always loved. I love sharing this about myself and things that have changed my life. It is so much fun. So I cannot wait for you to join me on this adventure! It is such a blessing to finally be doing something I want to no matter how scary it is.
Anyways enough about me I want to introduce you to my Team Beachbody World. I have a tab now for all my Team Beachbody Info.
I would love for ya'll to check out these websites and let me know what you think. It would really help me out.
http://www.beachbodycoach.com/MISSDEBRA
http://www.shakeology.com/missdebra
http://www.pinterest.com/MissDebraFit/missdebrafit-team-beachbody/

Thanks guys Ya'll are the best.
 

There is no Guide to Getting Over Somethings in Life

As time goes on I slowly come to more realizations of what happened since the first of the year. I went through stuff that no homeschooled, innocent, seventeen year old should have. I had no clue what I was doing or what was happening. When I was with the boy and things started heading down hill I found this song by K Michelle called I Don't Like Me. And it gave me some sort of conformation that I was not alone in this. I always told myself that I was not in a situation like the song talks about. Now looking back I realize that was the exact situation I was in except I was in love with the boy and completely blind to what was happening. On a day like today I do not see how I could ever truly love myself or expect anyone else to. Why would you love someone who expects so little for herself? How could you love a girl who let a man do that to her? How could you have the patients to love someone who cannot trust or connect with you?

I did not ask for any of this to happen, but it did. A nightmare that I lived and gave up my dreams for. I pray God can restore what was lost and grow me in time.

But They Look so Dadgum Pretty!

Acrylic nails...
I love them like any other girl would, maybe even more cause us Southern Baptist women like to hide our sins with beauty. But you do not realize how bad they are till you take them off. My nails were so torn and thin. Barely anything was left of them. They get hurt easily and are just plain ugly. You could relate that back too my Southern women analogy as well. When you get to know one of those women if you peal back all their layers of fakeness you find a very broken and wore out person. But that is not where I am going with this. I wanted to write this and point out that my fingernails are thing as paper. It even hurt to wash the dishes. Now yes I will miss always having beautiful nails and having every guy wanting his hair and back scratched. But I want to live a healthy life and part of that is having healthy strong nails. So I went to the nail salon and had them remove my acrylics. I am going to be honest with you it hurt like a mother F-er. But I am on the track to being healthy. My boss recommended that I get Gelous Advanced Nail Get Coat by American Classics. It is amazing It helps thicken your nails and makes living with them right after you get your acrylics off bearable.

Now I will most definitely miss the sex appeal of my acrylics but baby I am getting healthy and taking care of my body.

 

What If I am Not Ready?

What if I am not ready, when I meet the one? This question has been plaguing me all day. I mean I can't wait to get married and have kids, but I am just eighteen. I am practically a baby. I mean I have been through a lot. I have been through more than most homeschooled, church raised girls but what if I am not ready. I haven't gotten to live yet. I have been so hell bent on finding a man to take care of me and "love" me that I have lost so much. I lost my innocence. I lost so many firsts. I lost trust in men. I lost time. I lost sight of what I wanted because that boy thought my dreams were stupid. I decided not to travel because I wanted to be with this one boy. I could have been spending the summer in Childress or San Marcos. I let him take everything from me because I wanted to feel loved. I am so scared to settle down with a guy because I know the last three times I had myself convinced he was the one. Looking back I realize that is not who I would ever want to spend my life with. Now yes they had some amazing qualities but they were not the one. But I had told myself, "Hey we can make this work." I do not just want make it work, I want to know in my heart that he is the one.
But then I ask again what if I am not ready when he comes? I haven't gotten to go dancing yet. I have only been on a few dates. I haven't kissed two different boys in the same night. I never got my silly little threesome. Now yet all those things are childish but I am scared to settle down too soon. I am scared I will end up having to get a divorce. I am scared he will get mean. I am scared getting drunk and being like the old one. I am so terrified. I do not wanna pick the wrong one. It may sound foolish but I do get a lot of guys. Most of them are so easy to weed out. The ones that ask for bjs, goodbye sir. The ones who have no idea what grammar, spelling, or punctuation is. The ones who want pics, no ew there is porn for a reason. The ones who only want to hangout after ten. But what about the few good ones that make your world spin round. Those ones will either leave for an old girl or start piling up and then I have to choose one.
I just want to take a year and continue to talk to the guys I am talking to and become good friends with them before I ever start something serious. In that year I also want to travel and go visit all my family and  have some carefree fun. But it does not work that way. It is not like the notebook where Noah will love me forever even if I am with someone else. No, in this world if I want to take things slow and just be friends for a while every guy would leave. No guy can value me enough to say hey, I would rather become your best friends first and be there for you when you are heart broken, sad, and happy than just hop into bed right now and do married activities. I want a man wants to pursue me so much so that he is willing to invest time without promise of a future. But isn't that crazy. Who knows with the track record I have with guys, if a wait a good month I wont ever have to choose between guys. They always seem to disappear. On a day like today I do not really like myself. I wish I could be content alone or never had to choose. But it is not my job to choose the one it is Gods job to make sure the one sticks with me.

The True Adventure

"Its to be romanced and to reveal beauty, and to play an irreplaceable role in a great adventure. The heart of every girl longs for these things, its what makes us come alive." RaeLynn starts her music video to God Made Girls with this. It is a quote from one of my favorite Bible Studies Captivating. It is the dream isn't it. What we as girls don't realize it that boys cannot fulfill every part of that need for us. They shouldn't be expected to either. God made us to help men. We are here to encourage, support, and love our man. At times men can romance us, be captivated by our beauty, give us the sense of adventure but only God can fulfill the desires of our hearts fully. He will always romance us. He sees your beauty like no one else can because he is the one who created you. He is the author of our great adventures and He is just waiting for us to dream as big as He does. God is fulfills our every need, Boys are just icing on the cake. Don't get me wrong I love boys more than most girls. I love being held, getting surprise kisses, oh and I cannot tell you the rush of getting butterflies all night. But God's love for me surpasses all of that. He holds me through life. He always listens and always reminds me of his presence. God holds the key to our hearts, and only he can fulfill it. We can only hope that one day God will let an amazing man experience the love in our hearts.

So yes it may sound silly but God romances us everyday. He brings the sun up for us to see, like a boy brings us flowers. He has written us a whole book about how much he loves us. Lets be honest Noah's 365 letters in the notebook cannot compare. Don't get me wrong, I would be putty in a boys had if he started writing me letters, but Gods letters are so comforting. Every girl desires for her man to read her mind and know what she is thinking. Well guess what God does. What a beautiful romance God has created us ladies.

God knows your beauty inside and out . It says in Psalms 139:13-18 You formed my inmost being;

you knit me in my mother’s womb.^e

14I praise you, because I am wonderfully made;

wonderful are your works!

My very self you know.

15My bones are not hidden from you,

When I was being made in secret,

fashioned in the depths of the earth.^*

16Your eyes saw me unformed;

in your book all are written down;^f

my days were shaped, before one came to be.

17How precious to me are your designs, O God;

how vast the sum of them!

18Were I to count them, they would outnumber the sands;

when I complete them, still you are with me.^g

He loves your beauty without a doubt, more than anyone else can.

 

God had these beautiful, amazing adventures just waiting for you. It is full of trails, struggles, love, hope, success, adventures, fights, and a happy ending. Living a life by Gods design is the ultimate adventures. It is the dreams we have all been waiting for. It isn't a knight in shinning armor but a loving and gracious God who is to be our hero. Our problem is we cannot seem to dream as big as God has for our lives Why can't we dream big? Maybe it is because of fear or maybe we just live a life of contentment. Hear me out there is nothing wrong with being content there is a time and place for that under heaven. But sometimes God needs us to dream as big as He does to reach our full potential. You have a promising future, we all do. They may all be different but God has a plan for all of us. You do not want to be the one that gets to Glory and says God I am sorry I didn't take that step or make that move I was scared. So let me end with this: dream as big as God does how much more fulfilling will your life be if you embrace the huge plans God has for you to change the world.

Playing on the swing before my sisters wedding.

 

 

Change Starts Now

Everyone these days complain about their life: how bad it is, how they hate themselves, how they have no purpose, and how ugly they are. I struggle with those problems too believe it or not. I have begun to change though. It takes times and work and isn't always easy. It takes money but not always a lot as I will soon show you. So how am I starting to change you may ask. That my friend is a very good question.
It is something I like to call renewing my mind. I have to train my thoughts and the way I perceive life and myself to be good and positive. How am I doing this? I am glad you asked.

First I came to the realization of how important smell is. A certain cologne can remind mind you of an ex or a past relationship. The smell of flowers may make you happy. I went out and bought me the Pomelo Grapefruit Candle by Bath & Body Works. I also bought me the Young Living Essential Oils Joy, Stress Away, and Peace & Calming. Those few things have made a huge difference in my attitude. Find the smell that is right for you. If you do not know where to start go explore Bath & Body Works or order the Stress Away Roll-on from Young Living.

Second I needed to retrain my mind and there are a few ways we do that. We read. We Watch.  We write. Let us take the first one then. Read, here are the books I bought and love so far:

1. When a Woman Inspires Her Husband by Cindi McMenamin. I needed this because I started realizing with all my old relationships I had gotten selfish. Now yes I had every reason to be. But even so it does not make it right. This book is such and eye opener. I would highly recommend it.
2. Heaven is for Real By Lynn Vincent and Todd Burpo. This book will just make your mouth drop. We all need one of those books that just seems to be glued to you. This is the book my friend, you will not want to put it down.
3. The Vow by Kim and Krickett Carpenter. This will teach you good dating ideals and will be another jaw dropper. I cannot explain to you how much this book is teaching me. I would encourage you to give it to your daughters or grand daughters, because this book has taught me that I deserve more than I was accepting from young men. Must read!
4. Last but not least The Bible. I will give you a few suggestions here. If you are struggling and feeling sorry for yourself read the book of Job. If you feel lost and alone read the Psalms. If you need some good stories read Ester, Ruth, and 1st & 2nd Samuel. If you don't know anything about the Bible read Matthew, Mark, Luke, an John.

After reading we come to what we watch. We all must be honest and admit that it is almost all crap. I have started watching series and Bible studies on Right Now Media. They are so uplifting. Here are the ones I suggest you watch.

1. What does the Bible say About Dating
2. Captivating
3. Named By God
4. Reclaiming Your Heart
5. Five Lies That Ruin Relationships

Now we must write it to enforce good thoughts into our brains. My suggestions are to write notes of encouragement to others. Write letters to family far away. Send your friends positive daily texts. Turn Twitter into an uplifting rant. Start a journal or any kind, whether it be a food journal, workout journal, or thoughts journal. Just make sure it is uplifting.

To end todays post I will admit I got so lonely but through it all my family was there for me. If you start turning your life around God will bless you and slowly start fulfilling your needs. Trust me he works in mysterious ways. I would like to share with you a picture of me and my sister at her Wedding Reception. The amount of GOD given joy on my face is priceless.

 

Cramping Relief!

I have terrible cramps. Nothing can help them and I will be shaking on the floor in pain. I have found a few things that help me.

• Lemon Water- squeeze half a lemon into a glass of water drink as many as you can
• Rub Young Living Peppermint Oil on your stomach
• The old heating pad never hurts
• Try using Softcups instead of tampons
• Make an Essential Oils Morphine Bomb. Ask me about this!
• Also using some Stress Away oil works wonders

I hope these can help you! I am always learning new things and wanting to share them. So feel free to ask me more about any of these things.