Just when I was about to graduate, turn eighteen, and I thought I was changing my boy into a man; shit happened. Life was great so I thought and then poof it went horribly wrong and everything I was secure in disappeared. Its not fun to give someone your everything and then have them push you away and screw you over. It can be exhausting trying to hold on to something that doesn't want to be tamed. I went from loving a man and wanting a forever with him to hyperventilating every time I saw a picture of him with a new girl.
In the end I am learning the life I had and thought I wanted forever, was hell. The beauty of that life was all in my head, it wasn't real. I am moving on now and starting over. I am about to go to bartending school, start using and selling Young Living oils, and work on falling in love with life again.
Now I know this is all vague and I left out a ton of details but I am not ready to share those with you yet. I can however tell you this. Life shouldn't be that hard. I met a man who treats me amazingly now and I cannot imagine wanting the other life again.
In the end I am learning the life I had and thought I wanted forever, was hell. The beauty of that life was all in my head, it wasn't real. I am moving on now and starting over. I am about to go to bartending school, start using and selling Young Living oils, and work on falling in love with life again.
Now I know this is all vague and I left out a ton of details but I am not ready to share those with you yet. I can however tell you this. Life shouldn't be that hard. I met a man who treats me amazingly now and I cannot imagine wanting the other life again.
